Thursday, December 30, 2010

Guam Update November-December 2010

Hafa-adai (greetings) from Guam!

One semester under my belt and 3 or 4 to go! It’s been a long and stressful term, both deeply impactful and incredibly challenging. I know I can’t include everything in this update, but I’m going to do my best.

First of all, the semester is over! I’ve just completed New Testament History, Christian Doctrine I, Wisdom Literature, Linguistics I, and Ministry Introduction. It’s great having all of my classes themed toward my major.

Next semester my schedule will be a little different. I’m glad to announce that I’ve been hired at Guam Nihon Gakku (Japanese School) and will be teaching English to Japanese students ages 6-14. I start on January 6 and will continue working until the end of the semester. As most of you know, the job is a huge answer to prayer. I didn’t have many credentials, and I was extremely nervous in my interview. Yet God won the heart of the principal and I was hired on the spot! Since I will be working 3 mornings a week, I will be taking some online classes and some afternoon classes. My goal is to remain a full time student as long as I am here.

I am also pleased to announce that I have been selected to be an RA for the guys dorm for next semester. Unlike ordinary universities, RAs here are somewhat responsible for the spiritual health of the students. We will be spending time meeting and praying for all the students.

As you know from my last email, there is chapel twice a week all semester. Last semester, my friend Leeman was leading every chapel. For next semester, student life is giving me the opportunity to share the load with him and take half the chapels. I’ll be leading chapel worship every Friday morning.

I haven’t been back to Faith Presbyterian since my last email. Instead, I’ve been attending Lutheran Church of Guam every Sunday. I’ve gotten to know the pastor, Jeff, very well, and he’s even recently invited me to join the worship team. I’ve gotten to know many of the church members and have found a great family at LCG. I promise all of you, I am not becoming a Lutheran! Pastor Jeff is actually very supportive of my Calvinist roots, and LCG is in fact, not very Lutheran. In any case, I went through several weeks of church hopping, trying to discern the best place for me, and I am now very sure my place is at LCG.

As you know from my last update, there is a ministry that some of the PIU students do at the University of Guam. Since helping out last semester, I’ve been invited and am very excited to take a more active role this semester.

The UOG ministry team just returned from a week long Christmas mission trip to Saipan. We stayed at the Saipan Evangelical Church, a small Palauan church in the mountains. Every night, we would put on a program consisting of skits, action songs, choir, worship, a message, and student testimonies. I was a part of many of the activities and got to see God do some amazing things. The week was incredibly difficult for all of us. Practices were long and trying, but every evening before the program, all of us would pray earnestly that God would use our feeble preparation.

Tension was high for most of the trip, and eventually led to most of us breaking down on the last day, approaching everyone with whom our relationship wasn’t right. Every night, members in the congregation would approach us and tell us how they were blessed by the program, and every night, we would assess the evening as a group and realize that God was working just as hard in all of us as he was in the congregation. Aside from the evening programs, we did a lot of community service, meal preparation, and even one afternoon of door-to-door evangelism.

I learned a lot of personal lessons from God, as well, most of which are very hard for me to explain. With Saipan’s beauty and the church’s remote location, it was easy for me to go exploring and do my quiet times and devotions away from the others. One path leading away from the church went through the jungle and up the hill to a large opening surrounded by cliffs, jungle, and a multitude of birds. It was there that I went to God and cried out to him every day. There was so much stress and hardship during the trip that I found myself in tears many times. But it was during those times that I felt I was closer to God that I ever have been. Every time I think I have a good relationship with him, he shows me that I do not, and takes me even deeper. One thing I learned from him during the week is that he cares for me, loves me, and even wants to bless me, but every time I take him for granted and neglect him, good things in my life are just temporary. It seems like every time I act on my own and forget to trust him I mess things up. I wish I was better at explaining it. Just know that those quiet times were a big step in my walk, some of many more I hope. I have become quite sensitive since coming here. I didn’t ever imagine myself like this!

Anyways, from now until January 17 I will be on Winter break. I’m not yet registered for next semester, but as it stands I am in need of support. I am still ineligible for financial aid due to my income last year. Once my registration is complete, I’ll have a better idea of what I owe for next semester, but for now just be in prayer that God will provide. Also, please be praying for my relationships with others here.

I’ve made some of the best friends of my life here who constantly encourage me, pray for me, and hold me accountable. I’m hoping that God uses me in the same way so that I can be that kind of witness to others. I’ve experienced debilitating depression and homesickness at times, especially when I am confronted with cultural challenges and stress, but so far God has met it all and raised me up. I’ve heard that successful foreign missionaries wait up to a year before getting involved in serious ministry, and now I’m beginning to see why. I thought I was invincible when I came here, that I could detach myself from my own culture and transition easily. Now I see just how attached I am. The clearest mirror in the world is living overseas.

I’m praying for a chance in the future to come back and give a full report, even to do some recruiting. I am in love with this place and what God is doing in my life through it. I hope to hear back from some of you. Please continue to pray for me.

Grace and Peace,

Kevin Patrick Graham